Samara O'Shea

Archive for July, 2009

Gone Fishing

Friday, July 24th, 2009

Welcome to Please make yourself at home. Have a look around. I’m Samara—the mistress of this virtual space—and I’ve taken a leave of absence to work on some projects and to travel. I shall resume blogging in September. Feel free to enjoy the back blogs and other fun features here. You can read a love letter I received from a boy I met at summer camp, or a letter that Stephen Joyce (James Joyce’s grandson) wrote to me. Again, look around. I am nearby if you have come to request a letter. Enjoy your summer!

Change of Plans

Thursday, July 23rd, 2009

Hello everyone. I’ve obviously been a bit lax this week with the blogging and, truth be told, it feels right. It feels right, right now to set blogging aside. Here’s what happened: I finished the book proposal I mentioned earlier and turned it in to my agent. In the wake of finding out my former flame is unavailable forever I felt brave enough to mention to my agent another book idea that I’ve had in mind for about a year. I was terrified he’d tell me it was no good, and I didn’t want to hear it. To my great pleasure, he responded positively and told me I should put that proposal together. I am now going to spend every spare second I have on that proposal and make it as good as can be. It doesn’t even bother me that we might not do anything with the first proposal. I’ll chalk it up to being good practice! I am so excited about this idea and can’t wait to see what I come up with. Lemons, thy name is lemonade!

I’m going to take the rest of July and August off from blogging. The break is also due, in large part, to a trip to Vienna I have coming up. I’ve always wanted to go to Austria (grew up on The Sound of Music and all), and the time has come. I will be back in September. I’m here if you need me in the meantime—feel free to e-mail—for saying hello or for letter requests. I think this leave of absence will be good for all of us. Hopefully, I’ll get some great writing out of it, and (ideally) you’ll get some good reading out of it. Thank you everyone for your virtual support. I count you among my friends! Enjoy the rest of your summer.

Reading from Sylvia Plath’s Journal

Tuesday, July 21st, 2009

Here’s the second part of my April reading:

Thank you (if it was anyone from here) to those who left lovely comments on yesterday’s video. If you care to stop by and do it for this reading, here’s the link. And . . . not that we need another one of these, but here’s a link to a blog on the health benefits of journaling. Sadly, they didn’t work for Miss Sylvia.

Unrequited Love Letter

Monday, July 20th, 2009

I hope everyone had a nice weekend. I feel accomplished. I got a lot of writing done, and finally edited (or had someone edit) a reading I did back in April. Here’s the first part: the unrequited love letter. The video is obviously below, but if you have time to pop over to YouTube and either rate the video or leave a comment I’d be ever so grateful.

Random Journal Promo I Found on YouTube

Saturday, July 18th, 2009

In Retrospect . . .

Friday, July 17th, 2009

I’m rather surprised that I felt comfortable posting what I posted yesterday. Ah, well. It’s up, and I’ll leave it up. Thank you ladies (Stephanie and Joselle) for your kind words. You’re right, it’s best to feel the sad feelings first. Let them do their thing.

I spoke with a friend of mine yesterday and he said (as friend’s usually do), “If it makes you feel any better there’s a 50% chance it won’t work out.” I know that’s the truth but I’m trying not to focus on it. I don’t want my happiness to be contingent on someone else’s sadness or discomfort. I want to assume he’s madly (and genuinely) in love and learn to wish him well. Maybe I can’t be truly happy for him, but I hope I have it in me to wish him well. It’s probably won’t happen today, but that’s the ultimate goal.

Putting the Damage On

Thursday, July 16th, 2009

Remember yesterday when I said: “I’m sure I’ll encounter much worse in future.” Little did I know that it would come so soon. I found out this morning that a man I used to date (very much wanted to be with exclusively) is engaged. It came out of left field—I didn’t know he was in a relationship with anyone. I’m trying so hard to be happy for him . . . it’s just hard not to be sad for me.

I know that this too shall pass. I just hope I can handle the period inbetween the passing with grace.

This is how I feel . . .

Putting the Damage On
by Tori Amos
(this song makes so much more sense as a song. . .so download if you have a chance.)

stuck to my shoes
does anyone know why you play with an orange rind
you say you packed my things
and divided what was mine
you’re off to the mountain top
i say her skinny legs could use sun
but now i’m wishing
for my best impression
of my best angie dickinson
but now i’ve got to worry
cause boy you still look pretty
when you’re putting the damage on

don’t make me scratch on you door
i never left you
for a banjo
i only just turned around for a poodle
and a corvette
and my impression
of my best angie dickinson
but now i’ve got to worry
’cause boy you still look pretty
when you’re putting the damage on

i’m trying not to move
it’s just your ghost
passing through
i said
i’m trying not to move
it’s just your ghost passing through
it’s just your ghost
passing through
and now
i’m quite sure
there’s a light in your platoon
i never seen a light move
like yours
can do to me
so now i’m wishing
for my best impression
of my best angie dickinson
but now i’ve got to worry
’cause boy you still look pretty
to me, but i’ve got a place to go
i’ve got a ticket to your late show
and i’m worrying cause even still
you sure are pretty
when you’re putting the damage on
when you’re putting the damage on
you’re just so pretty
when you’re putting the damage on